Tuesday, February 22, 2022

The Run

 22 02 2022

The Run

Earnestly, he rubs the canvas

With a damp cloth,

reveals the white of his

old trainers.

Deliberately, one by one, unravels

 the blue laces,

dreamily watches a fly

 crawl among crumbs

 on grey tiles,

 oh, little fly,

you have no idea how lucky you are.

Out on the downs, on the coastal path,

he runs,

he runs, … slowly, …at first,

until, inside his head

an explosion, a war, of words

fly back and forth.

Keeping time he picks up pace

 Quickening,  the  louder they get,

Faster, …Faster, …Faster, …

Then…

his breath, his breath,…gives out...

He stops…        He falls…

He falls with …         A thud

Into the mud…

He curls…    Head down…

Face down…     Down in the dirt…

He sobs…

He sobs…

Down in the dirt, he sobs…

Renouncing self- Gospel reflection

 22 02 2022

Mark 9:34-9:1

Jesus called the people and his disciples to him and said:

“If anyone wants to be a follower of mine, let him renounce himself and take up his cross and follow me. For anyone who wants to save his life will lose it; but anyone who loses his life for my sake and the sake of the gospel, will save it. What gain, then, is it for a man to win the whole world and ruin his life? And indeed, what can a man offer in exchange for his life? For if anyone in this adulterous and sinful generation is ashamed of m end of my words, the Son of Man will also be ashamed of him when he comes in the glory of his father with the holy angels” And he said to them, “I tell you solemnly, there are some standing here who will not taste death before they see the kingdom of God come with power”

What does it mean to renounce oneself? And take up our cross? To save our life we must lose it. What’s all that about? How do we do that?

Does it mean I need to be in a convent, away from the bad world? Is that the way to save my life? Or join some catholic association and work for them, losing my life in that work so I can save it?

No, this message of Jesus is for everyone, not just for a few who can be Holy. No, I’m called to be Holy, we all are. He wants us not just to know about him, but to get close to him, intimately close - young people through their  studies, single people in their professional work, mothers and fathers in the family and in their professional work, and yes, also priests and nuns and those who work for the church. All of us offering Jesus our whole lives, through the little things of everyday.

So, in my life, whatever it looks like, Jesus asks me to renounce self. He asks me to put Him first. I can do that, hundreds of times in one day. And I can always ask him, Jesus, what do you want me to do here, in this situation or that other one?

Lent starts on 2nd March. Let’s make this lent a time to get close to Jesus to love Him more.  Each of us should prepare a plan. Not a huge list of things but something we’ll keep to. Something simple. Maybe you struggle getting up on time, then that’s a good place to start, as soon as the alarm goes, immediately turning your heart to God, and up. Renouncing self. “Help me live this day for you Lord”. Or it could be to do something small for someone you live with to make their life better - listening to them, giving them your time and attention. We’re so caught up in “self” sometimes, we don’t think of the others, who are often going through difficult times. A cup of tea, an offer of help. This, if done for Our Lord, is following Him, following Jesus. Could you, this lent, make time for Jesus by spending 10 or 15 mins in prayer with Him? Or read a passage of the Gospel every day? Maybe you already have these habits. Then think, can you do them with more love?  Ask Jesus for light to see what He wants of you this lent.  

 

Thursday, February 17, 2022

Shoulder My Yoke

17th Feb 2022

 

Matthew 11: 28-30

Jesus said, 'Come to me, all you who labour and are overburdened, and I will give you rest. Shoulder my yoke and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Yes, my yoke is easy and my burden light.'




"Shoulder my yoke"

What do you mean?
 You promise to give rest,
then you ask us to
 take up our yoke .
How are  these two
 compatible?

Overburdened with our
 "selves"
weighed down, yet
resting in you
we find a light-heartedness,
a peace
for our souls.
May time stand still
in moments of joy


Photo - Maria Lang




Thursday, January 27, 2022

Thankful Things

28th Jan 2022

 


I have so many things to be thankful for this week. 

I'm sitting in bed, looking out at the sky being revealed as the morning begins. I can tell there is a frost, but I see the red and blue and am cheered. 
 I've been more mobile lately, more comfortable, and realise it's because the pain in my back has eased, ( can't remember if I mentioned I  fell and fractured my spine).  Not that I'm able to do an Irish Jig or anything, but , I can now go  for long walks again. Phew am I grateful and relieved for that!!!

 The weekend before last we had a family party for my grandson's 18th birthday. I'm still giving thanks for it. Although a few were missing, most of the family were there. It was my birthday too, and what a fantastic gift it was to look out on the crowd in the hall with tears flowing, as it occurred to me that they were directly descended from myself and my hubby.  My heart was bursting with love and pride  and thankfulness. I felt totally blessed.

Thank you, Lord,  for my dear husband, who loves me completely. We have the same goals in life, and are mindful of each other, continually. I am amazed at what we have. 

Thank you, Lord, for friends, for their kind words, for their company, for their just being there. 

Thank you, for smiles. It's incredible how much a simple smile can do. I know I have cause to be grateful for many people this week who have smiled at me. Some are complete strangers and in some way that makes it all the more satisfying.  We should take the trouble to smile as much as we can. It's good for both the one who gives and the one who receives. Pass it on. 



A Poem by Spike Milligan: 

Smiling is infectious,

 you catch it like the flu, 

When someone smiled at me today, 

I started smiling too.

 I passed around the corner 

and someone saw my grin.

 When he smiled I realized 

I'd passed it on to him.

 I thought about that smile,

 then I realized its worth.

 A single smile, just like mine

 could travel round the earth.

 So, if you feel a smile begin,

 don't leave it undetected.

 Let's start an epidemic quick,

 and get the world infected

Tuesday, January 11, 2022

Distant Drums

11th Jan 2022

Prompt for The Sunday Muse: 


This is my first time

Distant Drums

The beat of distant drums 

stirs the silent spirit, 

 wakes the foggy mind, drunk with

 meandering in dark woods.

Now, they say,

come now, we are ready.


Friday, January 7, 2022

Ten Things I'm Grateful For

 7th Dec 2022



Christmas is over, but here I want to continue being joyful and grateful for the many blessings that I have.
So this week I'm joining, as I sometimes do, the Ten Things of Thankful bloghop.

1. I'm so thankful for the wonderful time I had at the Royal Albert Hall in London. What a joy it was to be there for their Carols just before Christmas, and how proud hubby and I were, our hearts fit to burst, to see our grandaughter singing with the Royal Orchestral Society. She's a beautiful singer and an even more beautiful person. A glorious day indeed. 

2. I am so thankful that we got to stay with our  daughter (auntie to said grandaughter) and her gorgeous family in Aylesbury, so that we could all travel to London together. We enjoyed our trip to London, fitting in the lights and a meal at Pizza Express. We met up with another daughter (mum to said grandaughter), and five more grandchildren ( siblings to said grandaughter) who'd also been to the Carols, obviously. We had two wonderful nights.

3. I'm also thankful that, on Christmas Eve, we got to go from Aylesbury  to Oxford and another daughter. A busy, happy house full of children. Everybody was doing something for the Christmas Day celebrations. A grandaughter making, not one but two Christmas logs, one gluten free for grandad. Someone else wrapping sausages with bacon and so much more. All eight children (three were missing - one married and living in Texas, another in London with Covid and having to stay with the boyfriends family, and yet another in Shropshire who was going to the in laws for the first time, though he's been married for nearly seven years) were busy doing something.

4. Staying with Christmas Eve, I'm thankful that we got to go with the family to midnight Mass. Yes, all the children went, even the six and four year olds. Two of the boys were serving . You really feel it's  Christmas when  you've been to midnight Mass. 
"Today a Saviour is born to us, Christ The Lord." 

5. My Faith is the most important thing to me and to see some of my children carry on the Faith in their own lives is just amazing. I must say, I did shed a few tears during the Mass, thanking God for everything. Although we didn't get to bed till three am on Christmas morning, I went to bed with a full heart and with a happiness I though could never be exceeded. 

6.  Then it was Christmas morning. We woke at about 8.0 am and there was no noise in the house, which I thought was unusual. After hubby and I did our prayer meditation, we crept down to the kitchen at 8.30 am to see if anyone was up. a few of the grandchildren were sitting round the table quietly waiting for everyone to come down. It was all very peaceful. Within a few minutes more joined us at the large table, though three of the teenagers didn't appear. We all ate our extra special granola and yogurt with blackcurrant jam - delicious. Cups of tea, glasses of orange juice and questions from the youngest about when we could all go and see if Santa had been. 

7. 10 minutes later mum goes to get the others out of bed, while the rest of us wait outside the living room door. Mum has to go in first. 
Ahh, eventually, about 9.15 am mum creeps into the room by herself to make sure everything is in order. 
Then, gently she opens the door, and we slowly follow the little ones in.

8. "Oh, wow, look..." Patrick, 4, as his eyes take in all the stockings - 8 of them - laying full to bursting in front of the fireplace. But the biggest wow is when he and his sister Annie, 6, spot the plate that was left for Santa, which contains one half eaten mince pie and an empty glass with just the dregs of the brandy at the bottom - proof it had been drunk. And the "nibbled" carrot that the reindeer obviously has a bit of. Then he spots the presents under the tree. Not many, only one for each of the children, but it's still a fair pile considering there are 8 of them. His wonder was the magic of Christmas for me. But before opening any presents,  there's one thing  that must be done first 

9. All this time Patrick had the baby Jesus in his hands ready to place in the crib and now was the time. Looking on as my little grandson lovingly placed the baby Jesus in the manger was a great moment for me. I am so grateful I was there to see him. 
Then we sing :
First, Happy Birthday
Then, Away In a Manger. 
Here is part of their Nativity Scene
I catch hubby looking at me with a tear in his eye. I love him more in that moment. 

10. Later on we have guests come to join us for dinner. The daughter we stayed with in Aylesbury with her hubby and three children. Dinner was roast lamb with rosemary and garlic, gorgeous little roast potatoes, parsnips, carrots, and much more. We all pulled crackers and after grace was said we tucked in. But more than the food what I enjoyed most was the company. After dinner we played card games, much to the delight of all. One in particular took everyone's fancy - you had to take a card which had the name of a Christmas song/carol on it. You had to hum the tune and the others had to guess what it was. I laughed so much my tummy hurt.

I know that's plenty of thankfuls, but they didn't stop there. On the 27th we were still in Oxford when our  grandson visited with his adorable wife and their five children. I was so thankful to see them as we don't get to that  often and they're always an inspiration to us.
We went home in the afternoon, tired , but happy.

On the 29th we had my daughter, her husband and her six children, to dinner. This if the family with the grandaughter who is a singer. I gave them bacon and cabbage and we talked about the wonderful night of the Carols.

I could go on. I've only covered a little of what has been happening in my life and in my family. But it's late. So I'll finish there.

Just to say that I thank God every day for my wonderful hubby and beautiful family.









Thursday, January 6, 2022

The Feast of the Epiphany of The Lord.

 6th Jan 2022

All Nations Shall Fall Prostate Before You, O Lord.

Today is a special Feast 

The Epiphany Of The  Lord

We saw His star as it rose and have come to do the Lord  Homage

The Magi followed the star. Sometimes it went out of sight and they had to have Faith that it was still there. Eventually, the star led them to Bethlehem where they found the king they had been looking for, the Saviour of the world. 

"...and going into the house they saw the child with His mother Mary, and falling to their knees they did Him homage. Then, opening their treasures, they offered Him gifts of Gold and frankincense and myrrh."

Comment:

Like the Magi, sometimes the star that I follow is hidden from me behind the clouds of the cares of this world. Like the Magi, I want to persevere on the journey so I find my Lord.

 Following my Faith, my star,  takes me to you Lord. When I come to you in the sacraments, or, I should say, when you come to me, in my prayer, in the work of my day, lived for you.

And when I find you Lord what Gold and  Frankincense myrrh will I be able to offer you, Lord? You will not be satisfied until I give you my heart. So take it, Lord, it is yours. Not just my heart, but all of me, my body my mind, everything. All for you. I can only give you Lord what you have already given me.  

The Gold, of my Christian Faith,

The Frankincense of my work done for you,

The Myrrh of the sacrifices I offer to you.

And all this for Love, Love which grows, we don't know how.


The fruit will come



Wednesday, January 5, 2022

Day 12

 5th Jan 2022

               Today

The 12th Day of Christmas 


Tomorrow, the Feast of The Epiphany. We will celebrate the coming of the Kings to the baby Jesus.


Wishing you all a wonderful feast day for the end of Christmas tomorrow




Tuesday, January 4, 2022

Day 11

 4th Dec 2022

Today is Day 11 of Christmas. 

We have nearly come to the ends of our twelve day journey. So many of you have been on this little pilgrimage with me. Thank you for your loyalty, for reading my thoughts and for your wise  comments, which I always find most helpful. 


I love this this image of the Holy Family, which is  in St Joseph's Chapel in Westminster Cathedral, London.

I look at all the lovely Christmas cards around my home. Nearly all of them have the nativity scene on them. I have a crib too. They all speak to me. I go to the baby - they are all different - I sit  there with Mary His Mother and with St Joseph and silently I'm part of the wonder of it all. i imagine them eating their breakfast - maybe a kind inn keeper or his son, brings it to them and they  engage in an uplifting conversation. And so I continue, putting myself there, living it with them, The Holy Family. I ask them for many graces for my own family, I ask that they all grow close to The Lord. Soon we will put the Christmas cards and the crib away for another year. 

If you send Christmas cards I urge you to only send ones with the true Christmas message on, even, and I would say, especially to those who may not believe and may have no reminder of what Christmas is all about, except for your solitary card.

Get back to me with your thoughts.

God Bless.  





  

Monday, January 3, 2022

Day 10

 3rd Dec 2022

Today is Day 10 of Christmas.

The season is slipping away. For many the blessings and joy of Christmas 2021 are already a distant memory, way in the past. Life has moved on to 2022 and the rush of life has resumed. Like little gerbils on a wheel they go round and round and get nowhere and maybe, also like the gerbils they enjoy their frenzied days. For them the fear is the silence, the stillness, the now.

But, isn't it there, in the present moment, spending time, wasting time with God, where all things come together, where we, just for a moment enter into the now of eternity?

The crib scene still has the possibility to bring us to that place, as we contemplate, the baby, who is our God. Let's spend some time today and tomorrow and the next day in front of the crib and let the baby speak to us. 

Today is the feast of The Most Holy Name of Jesus 

    Jesus

Call on Him many times a day.

Jesus, help - repeat over and over

Jesus, I love you - repeat over and over

Jesus, thank you - many times a day.

Another way:

God the Father,

I believe in, I hope in, and I love you. Help me to believe in, to hope in, and to love you more today.

Jesus,

I believe in, I hope in and I love you. Help me to believe in, to hope in, and to love you more today.

Holy Spirit, 

I believe in, I hope in, and I love you. Help me to believe in, to hope in, to love you more today.