26th May 2020
Five Years Ago.
26th May 2015
Hello all my lovely followers.
Just taking a rest from all the packing and cleaning and sorting and dumping and worrying that I've been manically steeped in this last week or so. Soon we are to move, days now.
In the meantime, let me tell you about a wonderful evening we had last Saturday at the Gulbenkian Theatre in Canterbury.
We went along with friends to a modern day opera, yes, you read that right, an opera. Not normally my thing - all those soprano voices singing in a language I don't understand.
But this was nothing like that. We were prepared for it by having a presentation evening at Beach Creative to tell us about this unique performance. The inspiration for the production was The Tokaido Road in Japan, or rather a set of prints by Hiroshige, an artist who did fifty three wood block paintings of the stations on the road.
Nancy Gaffield, a poet became inspired by the prints she discovered when on a visit to Japan and wrote poems in response to the pictures. ( Tokaido Road by Nancy Gaffield, in case you're interested.)
Putting these two elements together and joining with musicians and other creative people an opera was written.
What a wonderful experience it was, especially as we knew some of the history.
Add to that the meeting of friends and a glass of wine .... well you get the idea...
This is my response to it:
Tokaido Road
We step into the picture,
From Nihonbashi we accompany Hiro,
Along Tokaido Road.
A road from our dreams.
We cross the bridge.,
Slowly, serenely, absorbed in the scene.
Enchanted, enraptured, we listen to music,
as it resonates, reverberates,
In our subconscious recesses,
a reeling rhythm of life.
Music brings joy and pain
Freedom and confinement,
Throwing us onto the way of the road.
Images present themselves,
Without being asked,
A waterfall, windy roads,
Animals scurrying, birds in flight.
Kites held by anonymous hands,
Escape.
Trees sway gently over the banks of,
The river.
The river that divides,
With fingers that spread across the plain,
That takes to itself,
That has it's story to tell.
We, in monotonous pilgrimage,
Put one foot in front of another,
Encounter steep slopes,
And mountain pines.
At the summit,
cherry blossom fills aching lungs,
In the heat of the day.
As travelers we continue
On the way,
With Hiro,
But long for release.
The path , at times impossible,
Against us,
Wind , rain, umbrellas taking on new form.
We continue with Hiro,
To the end.
And in the end the mystery,
We are not the same,
We, like Hiro,
Are changed.
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Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Let's Go
Our moving date has been confirmed and while we live with wardrobes, beds and other furniture in our living room, we ponder on an exciting new future. What is to be left behind, what is to be changed and what will we bring with us. I feel this is a new era in our life where we can decide to have that fresh start.
Let's Go
Out of the ground from
The dark months
Emerging,
Breaking through,
Rising.
Now it is time for
New beginnings.
Expectation raises its
Head above the debris
Slowly.
Waiting to see,
Will it be.
And somewhere inside
Plans start to bubble,
Hope returns.
Let's Go
Out of the ground from
The dark months
Emerging,
Breaking through,
Rising.
Now it is time for
New beginnings.
Expectation raises its
Head above the debris
Slowly.
Waiting to see,
Will it be.
And somewhere inside
Plans start to bubble,
Hope returns.
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Moving????
Will We Ever Move.
Or are we doomed to be in limbo for the rest of our days?
The sun is shining and the sky is a gorgeous blue. But the storms of anxiety are rolling around our castle.
So frustrating this moving. Waiting on dates and people to commit to times they've already committed to. Way up there on the stress scale they say. I didn't think that we would be that bad. I mean, after all, we have a pretty easy job to do with no small children and lots of time . But it is getting to me big time. Tears are held back, but then gush forth at the slightest upset which is in no proportion at all to the small irritation. I am a mad woman.
Will I ever get my peace back? Will we ever walk through the door of that "other" house that should become our home??
But then I remember:
St Padre Pio : "Pray , trust and don't worry..."
Although it's easier said than done, it does help and makes a lot of sense.
God has everything in hand .
So, off I go to start the day, with head held high and a spring in my step because I know that God loves me.
Next time I'll bring you a poem. Don't go away now...
See you soon....
Saturday, May 16, 2015
Today revised
18th May 2017
16th May 2015
TODAY Today is special, Today is your birthday, Today you are Five, and Today , you celebrate , You celebrate by, Taking your daughter Swimming - something You both enjoy. Today, you, her father Are both older and younger Than her. She doesn't know, It's your Birthday, That , Today you are five. It's enough that you know. You were born , Out of the Death, Of your niece . You, rose up Out of her ashes. Her, a babe, Your own sweet angel, Drew you back To the womb, Gave you new life. And today , you can look back, To that other form, To that person who drank, Who was terminal, Still part of Your ancestry, But not you, No, Today you are five .
Since then, after a struggle of more than 730 days, you must be seven,
In your mid forties in time, in living only a small child with lots still to learn
But you are eager to build - to be a father, a son, a brother, a friend
And you put in the pot too the work that you do and you give it all a churn
So, you may be seven, but your growing fast, is the best yet to be ?
Will the bud that you are, unfold some more reaching its fullest bloom?
Though the flower be the unusual sort , one that's not easy to train
Or will it be of the hardier kind, a delightful gift to brighten the room
16th May 2015
TODAY Today is special, Today is your birthday, Today you are Five, and Today , you celebrate , You celebrate by, Taking your daughter Swimming - something You both enjoy. Today, you, her father Are both older and younger Than her. She doesn't know, It's your Birthday, That , Today you are five. It's enough that you know. You were born , Out of the Death, Of your niece . You, rose up Out of her ashes. Her, a babe, Your own sweet angel, Drew you back To the womb, Gave you new life. And today , you can look back, To that other form, To that person who drank, Who was terminal, Still part of Your ancestry, But not you, No, Today you are five .
Happy Birthday.
Friday, May 15, 2015
The Urn
The Urn
Norma, browsed the vintage showroom nestled between Gucci and Cartier in Old Bond Street, not looking for anything in particular. But the antique urn with its fresh
butterfly design captured her imagination. She tried to walk away, knowing her
husband would object. How often had she come home with an item of historical
beauty, spending more than they could afford on her passion for the
unusual. Passion that her husband was
convinced was an addiction.
She walked down other aisles, but the urn nagged at her and
eventually, not able to shake off the feeling that it was meant for her, gave
in, handing over crisp notes with shaky hands and a flutter in her heart.
She sat on the number 19 bus, stared out at the grey,
crowded streets of London. A sea of umbrellas bobbed and weaved. Her arms caressed the
carefully wrapped package perched proudly on her lap.
By the time she got home she was sure she had a convincing
story for her husband. She had time before
he got home to unwrap it, move other treasures out of the way to give it pride
of place and make herself a cup of tea while she composed and calmed herself.
She got as much excitement out of finding a special place for a new object as she did purchasing it.
“What on earth...” staring, he walked over to the new
ornament now adorning the mantelpiece. Norma sat on the couch opposite.
At her husband’s entry into the living room she put the cup and saucer down carefully on the coffee
table, got up and walked towards him.
His tone was not friendly and the tightness in his brow made his face look ugly and contorted.
“Do you like it dear?” she proceeded cautiously, persuasively.
“It looks great here...don’t you think, with the ...colour matching ...the
curtains. .. I’ve been looking... for something ...like this for ages.” Her words
stumbled, but she smiled encouragingly pretending not to notice the tense
situation. She took the urn down,
caressed it, held it up in front of him.
“Well, how much did you spend this time?” He sighed in
accusation. He fell onto the couch. This was becoming too regular an occurrence
but he was too tired to argue further.
“It wasn’t that much...”
Still holding the urn, she sat beside him. Although he was
weary with her continual spending, he found that, as he gazed on the unique
pattern and exquisite colour, he was, in fact quite taken with this piece. She
went on:
“Anyway, It’s worth it...you know.... it’s unique... nobody else
has one...”
“Yes, yes, alright,” he interrupted.
She held it lovingly for minute or so, deciding that she
would give it a clean and a polish before she put it back.
She gathered cloths, antique cream and soft brushes, settled herself down to the job in hand. When she removed the lid the colour
drained from her face,
“Oh my goodness,” she
murmured. She stepped away from the vase , “ oh my word, it can’t be...ashes...
someone’s ashes...”
Thursday, May 7, 2015
The Boiler New
4th Sept 2017
I can't believe it's September already and the children will be back at school this week . Where on earth did the summer go?
It will soon be October and I hope to be part of the OctPoWriMo poem a day in October. Can't see how I'm going to fit it in just now , but deadlines are always good to get me going - and finishing. And I have done it before. But for now:
Something I wrote a while ago:
I can't believe it's September already and the children will be back at school this week . Where on earth did the summer go?
It will soon be October and I hope to be part of the OctPoWriMo poem a day in October. Can't see how I'm going to fit it in just now , but deadlines are always good to get me going - and finishing. And I have done it before. But for now:
Something I wrote a while ago:
The Boiler
Sighing, she hastily pulled her dressing gown round her,
hurried from bathroom to bedroom and grabbed the phone. It was the second time in as many months that
the boiler had broken down.
“Mmmmm, you’ll be needing a new boiler,” the plumber stood, screws in grubby hands,
shook his head and took a sharp intake of breath. His West Country accent, not local, was comforting
and encouraging.
“ Can you not fix it one more time? I can’t really afford a
new one,” she pleaded hoping that she wouldn't have to fork out a large sum just now.
Left alone ten months ago after her husband of thirty five
years died in an accident, Rachel felt vulnerable.
“No, mam, sorry, but I can do no more for this beast. We've some good deals just now, though,” he
wiped his hands on a cloth picked out of his tool box.
“Right, ah, ok...” she moaned vaguely not wanting to deal with
this now. She followed him downstairs putting an arm across her chest to hide the coffee stains, suddenly aware that her hair resembled a willow tree gone wild.
“Well, I’ll have to think about it,” she nudged him towards
the door, knowing that she had to be out of the house in ten minutes. She'd have to leave this for later.
“ I could drop you in a brochure, if y’like..”
“Yes, do that, do that, thank you... ” slamming the door she
ran upstairs. How on earth could she afford a new boiler, she thought, dressing anxiously, without washing. She brushed her hair, wondering who the woman was in the mirror looking back at
her. How quickly the wrinkles multiply.
Briefly, she tried a false smile but that just confirmed that she had
aged at least ten years in ten months.
The train for London, delayed by twenty minutes had standing
room only.
“Due to over-capacity first class seating will be
declassified.” Rachel slouched in the
gangway, gazing at fields, the monotone voice from the tannoy washing over her.
“First class seating is now available for all passengers,”
the anonymous voice repeated.
She stood all the way to Victoria, deciding to walk, as
usual, to the Evelina children’s hospital, part of St Thomas’s. Although she had done this journey daily for
months, she still found she needed that walking time to build herself up,
increase her strength and bury, for the moment the poisonous guilt she
felt. After all, her daughter needed
her. She had to be the pillar, she had to keep going through the muddy fog of ordinary. Yes, to visit
was costing more money than she had, but what could she do? She had no choice.
Rachel
stopped outside the door, drew herself up and took a deep breath before
entering the room.
“Hi honey,” she hugged her daughter. She then bent over the bed to kiss
her granddaughter, who was in a coma since that day when she and her granddad
had decided to go shopping to get a card for her grandmother’s birthday.
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Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Tubs Of Ice Cream
My grandaughter got interested in writing poetry when I went to visit.
She posted this to me today:
Friday, May 1, 2015
My Favourite Thing About May
Hi everyone and thank you all so much for following my blog throughout the month of April for Napowrimo. I found the challenge both exhausting and stimulating, so now it's the
1st May - my official not writing a poem day - well, here's a few words that just spilled out:
My Favourite Thing About May
My favourite thing about May,
Is the light that increases each day.
When the 31st has come,
Till nine we'll have fun,
And know summer is on it's way.
Ring friends for a chat,
Eat out with hubby,
Have conversations and
Answer correctly,
Bake yummy cakes
That should sort me out.
1st May - my official not writing a poem day - well, here's a few words that just spilled out:
My Favourite Thing About May
My favourite thing about May,
Is the light that increases each day.
When the 31st has come,
Till nine we'll have fun,
And know summer is on it's way.
I suppose I must be addicted. I'll have to go to rehab:
ie:Ring friends for a chat,
Eat out with hubby,
Have conversations and
Answer correctly,
Bake yummy cakes
That should sort me out.
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